Hello, Ayana here! Rising from the eter… —
Wait, wait. It’s not eternal laziness anymore. It’s more like… occasional?
Yeah, occasional laziness, lol.
Anyway, Ayana here. And once again, I’m diving in hard and fast into the world of writing!
I’ve been meaning to stick to a routine writing schedule since I recently started posting again. Now, why didn’t I bother posting anything for the past two weeks? Good question. It’s not laziness anymore, per se (yaay?!), but rather because I was… intimidated.
Yup, you read that right. I was intimidated to write.
Not sure where or how I developed it, considering how much I LOOOOOVE to write back then. Before, I would write every day. Even during classes! I would be able to finish at least one episode on the high school rom-com story that I was working on. It was so easy for me to write back then, and I have a buuuunch of ideas. I could even come up with an idea in the blink of an eye. Okay, that might be an exaggeration, sorry. But the point is, the words and ideas flew within me like a river stream. Now… —
… Where did all those ideas go?!
I can still come up with ideas now, though not as quickly as I used to. And the words… well, that’s where I struggle right now. Not that I don’t know what I wanted to write about, but rather because I seemed to subconsciously hold myself back with the high standard I set for myself. Narrative writing has not been my strongest suit; heck, I suck at it. I’m not eloquent enough, and I suck so bad at describing anything. I can’t even write a good summary of anything! I’ve been writing a script for so long I can remember because… you know… you just write down who’s talking and voila!
But the story I’m working on right now, Rhapsodia Chronicles, cannot be told and written as a script. Or maybe it can be. But I’d rather write it as a narrative because: one, it’s fantasy, and two, fantasy stories are better written in English than Tagalog. Plus, I am writing this for the young… ones, lol. I dunno about attracting adults’ attention to my works (since I had an adult friend tell me one time that my stories are childish… ouch…!). But now I have one additional distinct reader in mind, aside from my future kids, that I wanted to write for.
My nephew, Sharkie! Or CJ, if you’ve read my previous and old blogs.
My other nephews and nieces… well, let’s just say they don’t really read… a lot. Lol.
Right now, this kid Sharkie (well, he’s a teenager now…) is the one that keeps me going. Whenever I hit a stump or lose heart in the writing process, he’s always there for me and reminds me of the reasons why I am writing in the first place. He said he’s not a good pep-talker; but this kid reminds me of the passion I used to have before when I was the same age as him (Did I tell you that he writes too? No? Well, now you know. And it melted my heart when he told me that he gets inspiration from me! Aww, such an adorable kid!). He reminds me of the little things in life I used to enjoy that I tend to overlook now that I’m an adult. He pushes me to write and not let anything stop me from doing so. He also told me to not forget that I will always have someone who will read my stories: himself.
So, yeah! Having this kid around keeps me going. Thinking about him and just wanting to see his reactions to all the plot twists that await him is so exciting that I can’t help but grin like an idiot. We’ve had brainstorming sessions before too, but I have to keep my hardest not to spill him anything. The innocence of this kid is so refreshing, and every time I talk to him, I am reminded of my younger self. Having that one reader in mind… well… hey, it works! And if I get more readers, that would be an added bonus. 😀
I’m not really the plotter type of person (more of a pantser, actually). But it helps me to write when I create an outline or jot down ideas. I’m old already and have had episodes of forgetting stuff. Thus, reading these outlines, no matter how old they were, helps me remember what it was that I wanted to write about.
I’ve been struggling to come up with ways or scenarios on how I want to start Rhapsodia Chronicles. And the reason why I couldn’t seem to decide on how to start it was because I didn’t have a clear idea of how I wanted it to be. Now, after polishing up a few main players in the story and mapping their relationships/interactions with each other, I believe I am all set to start. I’m actually giddy with excitement, and my drowsiness is blown away every time I remember the story map I have.
I can’t wait to get started on this and introduce everyone to the world and characters of Rhapsodia Chronicles!! 🙂
P.S. Here’s some of the story’s lore.
P.S.S And a little of my eye candy again, hihi. ^.^/*
To be continued….