December Blues

Wet. Dull. Gloomy.

And thus, December rolls in, bringing with it the eternal rain. (*cue in Burmecia’s OST from FF9, lol.)

It’s almost that time of the year again. Countdown to the year’s end, and then we’ll be welcoming another year again. Wait, am I complaining? No, no. I love December. I love the holidays. And I am always looking forward to the start of the new year.

So, what’s this post about, right?

Meh, I don’t know. I just felt the urge to write. I’m pulling everything out on top of my hat. All the things that pop out of my mind, I write. I should be working right now, but my creative brain is yelling at me to write about something. I just have to figure out WHAT I want to write about.

I’m feeling a little blue right now. I am stressing out about a bunch of stuff on my to-do list at work for this December and the upcoming events before the year ends. I’m bored and it feels like I’m not using my brain to its fullest. So what better way to exercise my brain that to write, right? Sure, I can play some mind games but maaaaan, the laziness and boredom is strong with this one.

I’ve always believe that I’m a busy person. And I’ve always felt that I don’t have enough time to do all the things that I want. I wish I can split myself into a bunch of separate entities so I can have each one of me do ALL THE THINGS that I want to do at the same time. One would be writing to my heart’s content, the other could be playing video games, one would be sleeping, the other one could be working…. and the list goes on and on! Have you ever felt this feeling too?

I woke up this morning and someone I love was pissed about something and they complained. Can you imagine how taxing it was for me? The day barely had started and I got all the negative vibes already.

Oh, world. Why are you punishing me today? Can’t you please be a little kinder to me today?

Meh. But then again, I have to give them props for apologizing for the outburst. That’s one positive.

Le sigh. I wish the day turns for the better.

Or maybe I’m just feeling all of these because of the rain?

Rain, rain, go away…

…. at least for now, when my heart (*coughs*) is troubled this way.

Aaaaaaaaand, Ayana, out.