Ayana here and rising from the grave of eternal laziness! *cleans off cobwebs on own internet web space*
I know I haven’t written as much as I want to the past months. There were so many things that I want to write about and stories that I would love to share, but this year has been relentless and most of the time, I find myself getting kicked into the curbside. Not to mention that I’ve spent most of my time loafing in my thoughts and not really putting anything into action.
Yeah, not a happy place to be.
Anyway, I discovered something about myself while I was idling away my time and it was this. *drum rolls*
Holy crap… I’m a romance author!! O.O
It’s funny, though. I’ve written a lot of romantic-comedies before: magical world and high school settings, but I’ve never actually considered myself as a romance author. Sure, I’ve written mushy love scenes (just the innocent love scenes and not anywhere like steamy romance!) and drama, but I wrote and integrated other genres too. It was only recently that I came to realize that all the stories I wrote focused or is focusing on the romantic aspect of it.
Let’s take my story, Rhapsodia Chronicles: Into a World of Illusion. Even though it’s set on the war-torn continent of Regulus and though there’s a war happening, I am soooo fixated on the budding romances between my characters. Sure, I try to keep the story in the war/adventure genre. But in the back of my mind, I can’t help not to steer the story’s direction away from romance.
This also applies to my other story, Transient Dreams.
And my short story, Theme of a Moonlit Night.
And the story I roleplayed with other people on Gaiaonline, titled Eclaire Rhapsody.
Looking back to this list… Huh. I guess I really AM a romance author. O.o
Yep, I’m a hopeless romantic! *throws confetti in the air*
Ever since I was a kid, I have always been a sucker for happily ever after stories. Did I grew up watching Disney films? Ha! I’ve only watched most of them now that I’m an adult. Living in the Philippines, I never really got to see a lot of Disney films. Or maybe it was only because I was mostly out on the streets, playing with my friends? Eh. No matter.
I grew up watching anime/s, though. And looking back to the list of anime I’ve watched, one thing was certain: if there is a cute guy involved, I am sure as heck that there will always be romance.
The first thing that catches my eyes before watching an anime is a cute guy and the rest follows. Even with Akazukin Chacha (my first anime, I believe). There’s Seravi-sensei, then Shiine and Lia. Seravi was the one I immediately got attracted to. Shiine and Lia are cute. Chacha was cute (I like anything that’s cute!) and pretty when she transforms as a magical princess. But then when Dorothy-sensei first had her interactions with Seravi, I already had a feeling that a romance would be possible between those two. And lo and behold, they didn’t disappoint. xD
I also love anime/s where two (or sometimes more) people are vying for the affection of the same person. I loved the drama that came along with it: jealousy, the kilig (butterflies in the stomach), misery, angst, you name it! But mostly, it’s the idea of love or falling in love that I love the most. I have experienced, countless times, the feeling of being torn between which characters I should ship together .
- Tohru x Yuki or Tohru x Kyo of Fruits Basket is one example.
- But even before them, there was Otaru Mamiya x Lime or Otaru x Cherry of Saber Marionnette J.
- Heck, I even tried to ship Sanosuke Sagara to Kaoru Kamiya just for the drama and wondering how Kenshin Himura would react in jealousy!
I also love romance on the games that I play. Yeah, even if the game have little hint or doesn’t have any romantic element to it.
Take Code Vein, for example. From most of the questions I’ve seen on Reddit asking if Io is in love with the main character… well, let’s break it down a little, shall we?
Code Vein lets you customize your character and pick any gender you want. Io is always with the MC and regardless of what gender you choose for your MC, Io’s duty (role, even) is to protect them.
But when I was playing the game with my male character, I can’t help NOT to ship them both together. Even when there was no hint whatsoever in the game that Io could be in love with him. For her, her duty to protect is of the utmost priority.
Then when I played my female character, no romance whatsoever. But I had a sense of friendship or sisterhood.
Of course, even with the supporting characters, no hint of romance either (except for Jack and Eva). But meh… I still ship some of them together. (Cruz x Louis FTW!)
Then there’s Final Fantasy VIII. I thought Quistis and Squall looked good together. But when I watched the ballroom scene, with Rinoa and Squall together… I fell in love with the idea of them together.
But Zidane and Garnet of Final Fantasy IX takes the cake for me! I am soooooo in love with them together! I am in love with the medieval setting, with princesses, knights, kings, sorcerers, you name them. Though Zidane is not a prince but a member of the thieving gang, Tantalus, the way their romance started and developed… *swoons*
Even the Suikoden series! Phew! So many shipping potentials! (Jowy x Jillia Blight and Nash x Sierra is my favorite!)
I still have a long list of my ships, but let’s move on.
Lol. Ah, those were the times.
Now you might be thinking, “But Ayana! That’s not what real love is about!”.
Yeah, but it’s still good enough for me. It is still love, nonetheless. Sure, I may be married now but that doesn’t make me no less of a hopeless romantic. In fact, it just got reinforced! Lol. I am blessed to have husband who loves me to the moon and back, and always down to ride with all my flaws and antics. I am blessed to have a wonderful marriage. I am happy with love, and I would love to share that wonderful feeling with everyone, in any way I can.
Yeah, love is not just about finding the right person and expect it to fly on the first go. Yes, relationships need time and effort to make it work. Sure, people will hurt us and break our hearts. But that doesn’t mean that we should be scared of love or stop loving altogether, right?
Ah, no matter. These are just the musings of a lovestruck fool anyway. xD Let me end this entry with a quote.
“The sweetest joy, the wildest woe is love.”Pearl Bailey